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 Legesag-UnderByen

                                            thank you jae, for the photo and the care

everdearest bogus,

it was last year when i let you go

it was letting go of those whispers when i crumpled you

in pain.

it was setting free of those wishes only you and i

knew under the covers, in between the roof 

and the ceiling.

it was you who knew me so much when laughing

people went home and i slept versus knocks on the door.

it was me who wished to be you sometimes.

it was  us who wrote poetry against the walls

when candles flickered and the town spoke no

crickets. 

remembered that day when i lit my eyes

and placed you into a bag with the rest?

sending you away did not mean that i wanted to evade

childhood throwbacks or i escaped from these weaknesses

i still sit on. you made lives softer, you made us little kids

drinking the rain straight from the sky,

folding papers to fly across the clouds

and keeping stories at solitary dawns.

i miss you, sometimes,  bogus

still, your name is the most beautiful

 but

i have stopped crying so hard

since i let you leave. 

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but swear, a child will kiss you in due time.

how’s your hole?

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