siya

 

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she likes seashore naps and the view of everything from the bus window. she likes tiny moments and the small spaces between faces when people talk.

 

sometimes, she wakes up to that odd feeling of being a fallen leaf, an old tree, an azotea or a waitress somewhere-- talking to a taxicab driver about that random song on the radio.

 

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 poetry as visual art

 powets do kick ass

 iPud (ako, too)

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and this. a proof that:

how you see LIFE is how

you actually see YOUR self.


 

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maddening spurt:

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 “The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!”

 

-Jack Kerouac-

 

kwarenta y otso

12/19/08

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“nang, mata ka na? may camera na ko, dasig, pityuran ta ka…”

 

  

  

)

in bed that night, i have the realization that my

birthday is nearing and soon i will have wanted to die

 for half the time I’ve been alive.

 

(

 

I’ve been out there,
tearing down judgment and breaking ego,
because some girls just want to watch the world
burn.

 

(

And for every one wondering lonely in the market,
until a punk asks them their name,
there is another,
striding down the tunnels,

and getting ready to sing.

 

)

 

The majority of my life I never loved you out loud.

It all happened inside me, like a train wreck.
Like the first moment a newborn baby is unsaddled
and wondered at. It was like

that.
Both menacing, tragic–

and miraculously precious.

I always save the nicest part for last, have you noticed?
I do that because I think somewhere deep and resounding inside me I know,
without a doubt, that it is going to be okay. One day I will love you in peace,
not

in p
i
  e
c
   e
s

 

(

one day, I will tie-dye every curtain in my hut.

I will cook flowers and paint the blankets with floral stain.

I will fly more and more kites, write unfinished songs,

Scream on hammocks because the crickets are noisy before the night.

One day, I will cry naked on the bamboo floor

Because someone will open the door and let me see

The starless night sky

“we are galaxies but we choose to leave and live. Here. Together.”

 

)

I have stories of a 48

A laughter of a 12

A heart of a soldier that never had dog tags but shone combat boots

A tight ass of a 24.

 

 

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*salamat pakas G-boy sa pagpityur, ginpalipay mo ko*

salamat sa tanan nga nagpakadlaw kag nagpahibi sa akon

sa sulod sang baynte-kwatro ka tuig.

i am staying alive, humming on the bus.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Previous Comments

Kagwapa ah :) I love the poetry and the puwetry. Haha.

Posted by blu at December 19, 2008, 1:24 pm

Happy birthday, Pak.

Like wine, adding another year to your age makes you better. And maybe, tastier? Lol.

I will see you soon. Really, really soon.

Happy birthday again, Pak. I love you. =)

Posted by jae at December 19, 2008, 1:29 pm

happy birthday, tin! *hugs* =)

gwapa ka kaau! =)

Posted by aileen at December 19, 2008, 8:00 pm

pakingshet! birthday mo pala? hindi ko alam. eh joke lang kaya ung hapi birtday dun sa email ko. dudugtungan ko pa nga sana ng hapi balemtayns at hapi undas na rin. hehehe. ang yummy, este sexy mo pla. kaso muka nga talaga kitang ate. hehehe. makikihapi bertday na rin ako. pakanton ka naman. o, walang malixa yan. hehehe. as usual, ano pa bang bago? nabighani mo na naman ako ng mga hinabi mong salita. kudos! keep growing mapren! :D

p.s. hndi pa kita masagot sa email dahil subsob na naman ako sa mabalahibong puke ng inang yuppie life. chineck ko lang to sa opis. hapi bertday ule! sana matupad wish mo! :D

Posted by lio loco at December 19, 2008, 8:51 pm

maligayang kaarawan otin! mahal na mahal na mahal kita =)

Posted by pambie at December 19, 2008, 10:29 pm

@blu: si manong ay :) mas pagros ang buli sang diese otso anyos!

Posted by modernpatadyong at December 20, 2008, 9:01 am

@janica: salamat pak. we still have 2009 :) pero dapat madayun na gid!

Posted by modernpatadyong at December 20, 2008, 9:03 am

@ai: nagmana sa iyo :D gitagalog nako ana ai kay dili ko kahibalo ibisaya. naay words sa ingles na lisod jud itranslate though iask ko si kim ug si chin. take for example the word “moan”. haha. salamat ai ha. sa tanang nga masulat ug dili :)

Posted by modernpatadyong at December 20, 2008, 9:05 am

@lio: haha. heto na naman ang aking de susing manika :P looks can be deceiving sabi nga nila kapatid. haha. pero maraming salamat sa adjective kahit di ako nakakatakam gaya ng iyong *******lang si eva fonda. haha.

ps
ang mga email mo ay parang sulatin ng isang batikang mananagalog na nagrarugby haha. pero salamat sa mga iyon, naaaliw ako.

Posted by modernpatadyong at December 20, 2008, 9:07 am

@pambie: salamat pamela kong iniirog. haha. wala na ko kagabi nung nag PM ka. andun ako sa isang lugar na puno ng mga loro at “kids”. hehe :D palangga ta man ka.

Posted by modernpatadyong at December 20, 2008, 9:09 am